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Hay House World Summit

I’ve been listening to the Hay House World Summit non-stop — I’ve heard from so many of you so it seems you’ve been too — and it’s been amazing, right?! But, there are only so many hours in a day and I can’t possibly get all the sessions in! So Hay House has created packages with incredible bonuses — including a super special one just for you from me! — so you can own all 100 sessions and listen at your leisure anytime you need a lift, health tips or a spiritual rekindling. I’m sharing my affiliate link with you so you can join in on the excitement!

OWN IT!

The Hay House World Summit Packages have all you need to heal, prosper and thrive – all in one place to access anytime you need!

CHANGE YOUR LIFE DIGITAL DOWNLOADS – $197
100 Digital Audio Lessons with Immediate Access Direct to Your Computer or Device.

What you’ll get:

  • 100 Digital Audio Lessons
  • 100 PDF Transcripts
  • Accompanying PDF Worksheets
  • Hay House World Summit Welcome Kit

CHANGE YOUR LIFE ULTIMATE CD LIBRARY – $397
100 CDs of Audio Lessons in a Nice Portable Album with Worksheets, Transcripts and Bonus Gifts.

You’ll get everything in the Digital package, PLUS:

  • CD Album with 100 Audio Lessons on Disc
  • Free Shipping

<< Buy now >>

ALSO RECEIVE THESE FREE GIFTS with PURCHASE ($426 in Extra Value!)

Bonus #1: MY Jump Coaching Basics Video Course ($197 Value)
[delivering in July 2016]

4 Video Coaching Sessions, Worksheets and Transcripts on the Following 4 Specific Steps of My 10-Step Jump Coaching Program to Support You in Making Whatever Change You Want to Make to Live Aligned With Your Truth and Desires:

  • Imagine Yourself Free
  • Set Your New Boundaries
  • Honor Your Resistance
  • Make One Different Choice

Bonus #2: Hay House Wisdom Community 1-Year Platinum Membership ($79 Value)

As a Wisdom Community Platinum Member you join our Elite learning program with our premium benefits including:

  • Monthly Free Online Course
  • 40% off all purchases on HayHouse.com
  • Free Shipping all year long!
  • Access to over 3,000 Audio Lessons from HayHouseRadio.com
  • Plus much more!

Bonus #3: Connect with Your Angels Online Course ($50 Value)

Angels can help us in a wide variety of ways and this course will enable you get to know your angels at a soul level, open up your spiritual practice and feel a much deeper connection.

You don’t have to have any special gifts to be able to work with the angels – you just need to learn how to uncover the connection that’s already inside you. Angel expert Kyle Gray will show you how you can achieve this through meditating, tuning in and opening up your spiritual energy centers.

During this six-lesson online course, you will learn:

  • About the different types of angels and how they each work
  • How to talk to the angels and listen to their responses
  • Prayers, meditations and affirmations that will help you with different needs
  • How to open up your spiritual centers for a deeper connection
  • Ways to send healing to loved ones and those in need
  • How to interpret signs from the angels
  • Techniques to raise your vibration and activate spiritual protection
  • How to give an angel card reading

Bonus #4: Lucid Dreaming Online Course ($50 Value)

Lucid dreams have transformed aspects of so many people’s lives – why not learn how to make the most of all that time you spend sleeping? Throw open the doors of perception and wake up to your true potential! Becoming conscious in your dreams can absolutely transform your waking reality in ways you may not have thought possible.

During the six-lesson course, you’ll learn:

  • How to remember your dreams when you wake up
  • How to recognize the landscape of your dreams
  • How to identify when you’re dreaming
  • How to slip effortlessly into the lucid dream state
  • How to choreograph your dream experience
  • How to write a dream plan to bring growth and healing to your life

Bonus #5: Introduction to Crystals Online Course ($50 Value)

Crystals have been revered for thousands of years as amazing tools that can offer you physical and emotional healing, help you to manifest your desires, offer you answers to your questions, and support you to follow your calling.

Judy will take you through the crystals she uses herself on a daily basis, and guide you on how to work with them to protect your energy and manifest the changes you desire. From designing crystal grids to creating amazing potions, this is a masterclass in working with crystals.

During this seven-lesson online course, you will learn:

  • The history of crystals
  • How to choose your crystals
  • Tools for cleansing, programming and grounding
  • How to create beautiful crystal layouts
  • How to make powerful crystal essences
  • How to use crystals for space clearing and protection
  • Techniques for emotional and mental healing
  • Access a higher consciousness

<< Buy now>> 

Living with uncertainty

Don’t get stuck!Uncertainty. The tension of opposites. How, just when we think we have landed, we are actually further unearthed. Ground must be restored, but not through stillness. Stillness will not satisfy. I discovered life as breath: fluidity is the only ground we can seek.

For me, the catalyst of change was the ending of my marriage. For others, it’s the yearning for a new job, a new relationship, a new life. I’d like to share this poem with you about moving through the uncertainty of change as you jump to the life you desire.

into the uncertainty

last night
or very early this morning
he felt me awake
his deep exhale nestling
the nape of my neck
palm resting on the 
small of my back
gently pressing down
to ground me

now
the shorthand
of a marriage
translated
over time
is a lost language
just ancient fragments
of letters and torn
corners of reverie

in the dark
as i move in bed
i get the sense that
i am too big for this
body i’ve had

i surrender and assign
the loving of my body
to you
until i am ready to
love it again

feel like i am pushing
myself out from the inside
stretching this restrictive
container

all the while
i cried and
she stayed
prayed with me
into the uncertainty
still she watches
clearing the way
while i cannot see
stands beside me
when i need strength
to move forward
gently reminding me
that it’s always about
beginning
and then beginning
again

marriage
is a long time
to be away from myself

It takes courage to live with the uncertainty that comes from change. Avoiding this uncertainty can keep us stuck for years in relationships or jobs that no longer serve us. When you truly embrace change, you embrace everything that comes with it, even the uncomfortable parts! Your reward is the life you truly desire.

Let’s continue the conversation on Facebook.

Only a few listening days left….

I hope you’ve had a chance to listen in on my Hay House World Summit session Worthy: You Have Always Been Whole in which Robert engaged me in a dance of poetry, meditation and process—and there’s an exercise I’ll take you through as well. I look forward to hearing from you after you have a listen!

All 100 conversations and 16 movies are still available for FREE, but only until this Thursday night, so it’s time to hustle and git your Summit on! 🙂 And, I share my affiliate link for you to join.

Worthy Is

<< Register Now for FREE >>

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<< Register Now for FREE >>

I had the great honor of interviewing many of the luminaries you’re listening to, including these in Series 4:

Katie Hess: The Transformative Power of Flowers for More Happiness and Fulfillment in Your Life
Nick Ortner: The Tapping Solution for Manifesting Your Great Self

BUT you’ll only have access to the Hay House World Summit website until May 26th, so I do hope you’ll join us for these final days.

<< Join Now to Listen >>

And, Remember to Watch these Inspirational Videos from Series 4

Entanglement – Gregg Braden
The Magic Hand of Chance – Michael Goorjian
Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life – Dr. Wayne Dyer
Money, and the Law of Attraction – Esther and Jerry Hicks

Now that you’ll have access to all 100 audio lessons, I don’t want you worried about getting overwhelmed. That’s why Hay House has created packages (with incredible bonuses) so you can own and revisit anytime you need a lift, health tips or a spiritual rekindling!

Take advantage of the FREE Hay House World Summit Welcome Kit on the website! This step-by-step guide has everything you need to make those important changes you’ve been craving! And remember to try the Choose Your Growth Path Infographic. This is a great feature to help you choose the lessons you most want to hear!

Hay House World Summit

OWN IT!
The Hay House World Summit Packages have all you need to heal, prosper and thrive – all in one place to access anytime you need!

CHANGE YOUR LIFE DIGITAL DOWNLOADS – $197
100 Digital Audio Lessons with Immediate Access Direct to Your Computer or Device.

What you’ll get:

  • 100 Digital Audio Lessons
  • 100 PDF Transcripts
  • Accompanying PDF Worksheets
  • Hay House World Summit Welcome Kit

CHANGE YOUR LIFE ULTIMATE CD LIBRARY – $397

100 CDs of Audio Lessons in a Nice Portable Album with Worksheets, Transcripts and Bonus Gifts.

You’ll get everything in the Digital package, PLUS:

  • CD Album with 100 Audio Lessons on Disc
  • Free Shipping

ALSO RECEIVE THESE FREE GIFTS with PURCHASE ($426 in Extra Value!)

Bonus #1: MY Jump Coaching Basics Video Course ($197 Value)
[delivering in July 2016]

4 Video Coaching Sessions, Worksheets and Transcripts on the Following 4 Specific Steps of My 10-Step Jump Coaching Program to Support You in Making Whatever Change You Want to Make to Live Aligned With Your Truth and Desires:

  • Imagine Yourself Free
  • Set Your New Boundaries
  • Honor Your Resistance
  • Make One Different Choice

Bonus #2: Hay House Wisdom Community 1-Year Platinum Membership ($79 Value)

As a Wisdom Community Platinum Member you join our Elite learning program with our premium benefits including:

  • Monthly Free Online Course
  • 40% off all purchases on HayHouse.com
  • Free Shipping all year long!
  • Access to over 3,000 Audio Lessons from HayHouseRadio.com
  • Plus much more!

Bonus #3: Connect with Your Angels Online Course ($50 Value)

Angels can help us in a wide variety of ways and this course will enable you get to know your angels at a soul level, open up your spiritual practice and feel a much deeper connection.

You don’t have to have any special gifts to be able to work with the angels – you just need to learn how to uncover the connection that’s already inside you. Angel expert Kyle Gray will show you how you can achieve this through meditating, tuning in and opening up your spiritual energy centers.

During this six-lesson online course, you will learn:

  • About the different types of angels and how they each work
  • How to talk to the angels and listen to their responses
  • Prayers, meditations and affirmations that will help you with different needs
  • How to open up your spiritual centers for a deeper connection
  • Ways to send healing to loved ones and those in need
  • How to interpret signs from the angels
  • Techniques to raise your vibration and activate spiritual protection
  • How to give an angel card reading

Bonus #4: Lucid Dreaming Online Course ($50 Value)

Lucid dreams have transformed aspects of so many people’s lives – why not learn how to make the most of all that time you spend sleeping? Throw open the doors of perception and wake up to your true potential! Becoming conscious in your dreams can absolutely transform your waking reality in ways you may not have thought possible.

During the six-lesson course, you’ll learn:

  • How to remember your dreams when you wake up
  • How to recognize the landscape of your dreams
  • How to identify when you’re dreaming
  • How to slip effortlessly into the lucid dream state
  • How to choreograph your dream experience
  • How to write a dream plan to bring growth and healing to your life

Bonus #4: Introduction to Crystals Online Course ($50 Value)

Crystals have been revered for thousands of years as amazing tools that can offer you physical and emotional healing, help you to manifest your desires, offer you answers to your questions, and support you to follow your calling.

Judy will take you through the crystals she uses herself on a daily basis, and guide you on how to work with them to protect your energy and manifest the changes you desire. From designing crystal grids to creating amazing potions, this is a masterclass in working with crystals.

During this seven-lesson online course, you will learn:

  • The history of crystals
  • How to choose your crystals
  • Tools for cleansing, programming and grounding
  • How to create beautiful crystal layouts
  • How to make powerful crystal essences
  • How to use crystals for space clearing and protection
  • Techniques for emotional and mental healing
  • Access a higher consciousness

Please use my affiliate link to buy now and receive ALL the bonuses above, including my Jump Coaching Basics Video Course, delivering in July 2016!

 

How much of a raise do you want?

You are worthy of abundance!“I don’t charge as much as I’d like to for my services.”
“I tend to give away my products.”
“I’m afraid to ask for a raise or a promotion.”

Do any of these statements sound like you?

If so, you’re not alone!

Many of us (especially women) struggle with defining our value – and asking to be compensated accordingly. Studies show that women are less likely to negotiate their salary or ask for a raise. If we do and we’re told there’s no money in the budget, we’re more likely to give in, feeling guilty for asking in the first place.

Men, on the other hand, are more apt to stand their ground and keep pushing until they get what they want. Clearly many women have self-worth issues that tend to come out in particular ways around money – and we often put on financial blinders as a result.

There are many reasons we put on financial blinders, but one in particular is hard to recognize. What would happen if our hard luck stories related to money – to not having enough – turned out to not be true? What if we deserved and could have an infinite financial future?

If that were true, it would invalidate a whole bunch of ideas we have about ourselves… for example, the idea we aren’t worthy! We’d have to expand our current comfort level to having more. We’d have to stop playing small.

Accepting our greatness means no longer playing small. It often starts with baby steps. But eventually it means making major changes – in our lives, jobs, relationships and dreams.

If I had believed in my own self-worth, I would never have been willing to make the financial moves I made in the past. How many years did I waste, postponing a better life, simply because I went into hiding and didn’t see I was worthy of something better?

An infinite attitude toward money and our own self-worth starts with taking off the blinders and seeing where we’ve kept ourselves in the dark. And the good news is, you can start now to do things differently and create the abundant life you desire and deserve!

When you understand your self-worth, you understand that you are worth being paid for the value of your work. It’s easier to put on financial blinders, because then we can be comfortable with the hard luck money stories we’ve been telling ourselves. It’s time to expand our comfort level to having more, and embrace our self-worth and our abundance. It’s time to stop playing small!

Let’s continue the conversation – join me on Facebook!

Hay House World Summit: 100 Teachers in Your Headphones

Now I have an image of 100 tiny beings, with big brilliant minds, all squished into my headphones vying for airtime! But fortunately, there’s plenty of time to hear from all the teachers you desire to learn from. And, I share my affiliate link for you to join.

Yes, the 2016 Hay House World Summit is halfway through but luckily we’ve still got two weeks left—and Series 3 begins today with 25 more lessons from some of my favorite authors on healing, forgiveness, loving yourself, and healthy eating habits and 4 wonderful films – you won’t want to miss it!

Hay House World Summit

I can’t imagine that you’re not already signed up for this FREE banquet of audio and video yumminess, but if the Hay House World Summit has eluded you so far, there’s still time to register — it’s FREE, you’ve got nothing to lose and everything to gain! You’ll get access to all the richness that this Summit has to offer: a total of 75 audio lessons and 12 movies, all free, along with helpful tools to make sure you get the most out of this year’s Summit. There’s truly nothing like it!

Several new interviews I conducted are available today with Series 3:

  • Julia Cameron: The Artist’s Way: Creative Myths and Monsters
  • Mike Dow: The Brain Fog Fix
  • Michelle Lightworker: 12 Powerful Everyday Lightworker Principles
  • Mario Martinez: The Cultural Self: How Longevity Is Learned and the Causes of Health Are Inherited
  • Liana Werner-Gray: When Weight Loss Seems Impossible

Each one a brilliant Master Class of its own and I’m so excited for you to reap the benefits these amazing teachers have to offer.

And Remember, You Get Inspirational Videos with Series 3 TOO!

The time to tune in is now! Light yourself up and lead the way!

Please use my affiliate link to continue your very own World Summit journey right now, for free.

 

Hay House World Summit Series 2: 50 Free Audio Lessons!

Hay House World Summit

Welcome to Series 2 of the Hay House World Summit. This next 5-day series brings you 25 brand new lessons that will have you brimming with inspiration and motivation! Healing, forgiveness, learning to love yourself, and healthy habits that will have you excited to get in the kitchen – get your pen and paper ready! This post contains an affiliate link for our Hay House World Summit.

Please use my affiliate link to begin your very own World Summit journey right now.

The coolest thing is that with the release of Series 2, you’ll now have access to all 50 audio lessons. The very best part is that you can listen to a lesson several times, and each time, learn something new!

This latest series’ lessons features powerful wisdom! I had the good fortune to interview Doreen Virtue, Kris Carr, Barbara De Angelis, Teal Swan and Karen Henson Jones this time around…so I can let you know firsthand that you won’t want to miss these!

Hay House World Summit

 

Relax and enjoy a movie this week!  We’re featuring four great inspirational videos during this 5-day stretch.

Tales of Everyday Magic: My Greatest Teacher

Despite having a loving family and a fulfilling career as a university professor, Ryan Kilgore has always held deep resentment and anger toward the father who abandoned him when he was born. When these emotions take their toll on his marriage – and his relationship with his own son – Ryan realizes he must confront these unhealed wounds. While at an academic conference, he embarks on a search to track down his father, Big Bob. Along the way, Ryan encounters friends and acquaintances of Big Bob, while reawakening memories of his childhood.

Tales of Everyday Magic: Painting the Future

Jonathan Langley’s life took a devastating turn when he lost his eyesight to a rare illness. Once a successful painter and printmaker, Jonathan now lives in complete darkness, rarely leaving his apartment and angry at the world. When he encounters his precocious 11-year-old neighbor, Lupe, the two form an unlikely friendship. Her cheerful presence shatters his hardened exterior, revealing a gentle man struck by tragedy. Lupe leads him to a fresh perspective by showing him the power of kindness, compassion, and love.

The Shadow Effect

 Be uplifted by the power that is hidden beneath the surface of your conscious mind. Take this emotionally gripping, visually compelling journey into your mysterious shadow self; the hiding place for your most disliked thoughts, emotions, and impulses and discover how by embracing your worst fears, you can step into your greatest self.

Wishes Fulfilled

Dr. Wayne Dyer presents the five Wishes Fulfilled Foundations: these are the five steps necessary for fulfilling your deepest desires. Dr. Dyer demonstrates how to master each step so that you can achieve an extraordinary life! You will learn how to use Imagination, Living from the End, Assuming the Feeling of the Wish Fulfilled, Attention, and the Last Five Minutes of Each Day to attract what you most want into your life. The program also includes an appearance by special guest Anita Moorjani, plus a moving performance by the San Diego Children’s Choir.

Please use my affiliate link to begin your very own World Summit journey right now.

Discover Your Intuitive Gifts

Use your intuition to set you free!Jumping requires faith. Faith that when you jump, there will be a net, you will not be destroyed, that you will sail and fly.

Your first leap of faith is to admit to yourself what you already know. The result is enormously freeing, and is the primary stepping-stone to true freedom.

The second, more challenging, step is to tell the truth to someone safe. Here is where your intuitive gifts kick in. Really consider who might be the best person to trust with your truth. Take some time to journal or meditate on this. If you can’t think of the right person now, continue to be open and I firmly believe the right person will come to mind.

You’ll be amazed at how freeing it is when you tell the truth and are met with the empathy of someone you trust. I know that for me, the truth suddenly felt like a weight I could no longer bear by myself. I had always assumed everyone would turn away from me if they found out. I assumed I’d be left alone. Far from it, when I finally told the truth, I was offered loving support and advice!

By telling someone, I finally allowed myself to be vulnerable. Rather than trying to control everything in my life, I confided in someone else and let them in to see the authentic me. It was hard, but when you choose someone safe – someone who loves you and won’t judge you – they will see your humanness and have compassion for you on a deep, genuine level.

Now that you are truly “seen” – and you survived it — you will feel yourself empowered to take the next steps and make different choices about your life. Again, your intuition and internal guidance will help you move toward the choices that are most freeing.

Are you ready? If not, don’t worry – we’re never really ready. Remember that the process is inch-by-inch, so you can take as much time as you need. (It took me two years to really make the leap of my lifetime.) When you are ready to jump, your intuition, that internal voice we all have, will be an invaluable guide along the way.

When you connect with your intuition, you’ll tap into an invaluable guide for your journey to your authentic self and the life you desire. As you choose the people who create your safety net and make the new choices that support your new life, connecting with your intuitive and energetic guidance is an important tool for self-discovery.

Join the conversation with me on Facebook.

Hay House World Summit Begins Today!

What could be better than limitless motivation plus inspired action in support of you creating the life you love?!

Lao Tzu said “A journey of a thousand miles begins with one step,” …and your Hay House World Summit adventure begins with a single click!

Here’s what’s in store for you over the next 5 days from the world’s leading experts!

Hay House World Summit

 

Within Series 1 you have the opportunity to enjoy 25 audio recordings, plus 4 feature length films. All of these have been hand-picked by the team at Hay House to ensure you have the most up-to-date knowledge from the world’s best.

Access for FREE

This 5-day stretch includes my interviews with the inimitable Caroline Myss as well as Balboa Press author Greg Frucci…plus spiritual and health leaders like Wayne Dyer, Mike Dooley, davidji, Alberto Villoldo, PhD, and many more! I seriously don’t think I will remove my earbuds for the whole week—or rather the whole month! 😉

No matter where you are in your own transformation, there’s a spot right here just waiting for you to claim it! Click Here for Series 1 – Start Your Journey! 

Remember, You Get to Watch these Inspirational Videos from Series 1 Too!

The Shift

Best-Selling Author and Renowned Spiritual Teacher, Dr. Wayne W. Dyer, presents his first feature film (formerly titled Ambition to Meaning). The Shift is the story of the most important moment of your life; when you stop striving and start arriving! It’s the choice you make to move toward a life that gathers up the pieces of your best, most fulfilled, most loving self.

The Cancer Cure Deception

The Cancer Cure DeCeption. This awe-inspiring 90 minute documentary brings new awareness and shares an in-depth compilation of research, science, and history of how the culture of corruption in the cancer “industry” has spread over the past 100 years… back to the very earliest diagnosis of cancer, the infiltration of the pharmaceutical industry and the brainwashing of doctors all the way up to the present day.

Who is Asking “Who Am I?”

Filmed in Carlsbad, California, at the Chopra Center’s “Seduction of Spirit” retreat on April 23, 2013, this inspiring video captures the historic evening that master teachers Eckhart Tolle and Deepak Chopra share the stage for the very first time. Over the course of two hours, they cover such profound topics as the five kleshas at the root of our suffering, the immutability of the present moment, and how we are all timeless beings into which time is born. Learn what it means to fight the infection of thought. Understand that you cannot find consciousness by looking for it.

Eckhart and Deepak also answer burning questions submitted by seekers of knowledge just like you, and conclude the evening with a stunning display of synchronicity, as the conspiracy of the total universe delivers to their stage fellow personal transformation expert Wayne Dyer, who just happened to be in town—ready to share a love that cannot be divided.

Join this unprecedented meeting of the minds and discover the formless presence of consciousness itself!

You Can Heal Your Life: The Movie

In this inspirational movie, Louise Hay offers profound insight into the relationship between the mind and the body. Exploring the way that limiting thoughts and ideas control and constrict us, she offers us a powerful key to understanding the roots of our physical diseases and discomforts.

Please use my affiliate link to begin your very own World Summit journey right now.

 

Hay House is at it again – 4 Free Lessons to Jumpstart Your Learning

Hay House World Summit
Hay House is at it again! This post contains an affiliate link for our annual World Summit designed to empower, heal and transform your life with the world’s leading experts–including me! And, in addition, I conducted 17 of these interviews and each one is a master class unto itself!

If you’ve never experienced a Hay House World Summit, you’re in for a real treat! Now we have 20 days to listen, a downloadable Hay House World Summit Welcome Pack to help you take action, and a supportive global community –devoted to learning, growing and living life to the fullest!

Pre-Event Attendee Bonus Lessons

Register now and jumpstart your learning adventure with these 4 FREE audio lessons, available exclusively for our pre-event attendees!

As a “Thank You” for registering, Hay House is offering 4 amazing audio lessons for you to enjoy for FREE. These lessons are a great way to start your learning adventure while you wait for the summit to start!

When you register before the summit starts, you’ll receive audio lessons from:

  • Marianne Williamson – Wisdom from a Course in Miracles
  • Deepak Chopra – Who Am I?
  • Brian Weiss – Meditation, Past Lives and Relaxation
  • Davidji – Meditation and Mindfulness

What’s in this year’s Hay House World Summit for YOU?

  • 100 experts, authors and spiritual teachers covering multiple topics including, physical, mental and emotional health, spirituality, prosperity, relationships and self-empowerment.
  • 17 inspirational movies to uplift, stimulate and renew your mind, body and spirit.
  • The Hay House World Summit Welcome Pack to help you follow through in making changes that are important to you.
  • Choose Your Personal Growth Path Infographic to guide you to the lessons you most want to hear.
  • Exclusive access to our Hay House World Summit Facebook Group, a group of like-minded people who understand you and will support and nurture you in living your best life.

Get all of this wisdom FREE with 20 days to listen and learn from the world’s leading experts! As you know, the Journey to Self-Discovery, Health and Success isn’t just a one-time event! It is an ongoing, connected and encouraging process to great change and ultimate fulfillment. Be a part of the Hay House World Summit supportive global community – devoted to learning, growing and living life to the fullest!

Please use my affiliate link here to begin your very own World Summit journey right now.

 

My Journey with Journaling

Take a journey through journaling.Katie Dalebout, author of Let It Out: A Journey Through Journalingwill be my guest on my Hay House Radio show this week!

And wow, does that bring up a lot around my own journey through journaling!

Journaling is how I solve and dissolve complex equations of heart and head. It’s my personal commitment to revealing. We discover ourselves in words, unveiled and immersed in the precision of the present moment.

I have been writing to capture and process the details of my life since I was 11, in over 90 volumes of personal journal. Out of these pages my poems emerge, mined from the mosaic of memory, fragments of language, introspection and observation. The practice of poetry is my wayfinding. It’s my guide. Distilling and illuminating the essence of a fixed moment in time, like a snapshot. The pure, concise extraction of an experience, like espresso. In some way, it didn’t happen if I didn’t write about it.

The beginning of the end of my marriage was when my husband discovered – and read – my journals. While our relationship had been slowly falling apart for some time, I’d chosen to stay in denial so deeply that it took something this monumental to wake me up.

I did everything for my husband. It was all about him, and my own needs didn’t matter. I had designed a marriage for myself where there was no room for the real me. I acted the part of the woman my husband wanted and needed me to be. But I wasn’t good enough at that, so I let him try and mold me into his image of the perfect wife.

When you stay in a situation that isn’t working, denying your own needs, eventually your own well-being demands to be heard. And when you don’t heed that call, the truth will come out… unfortunately, it comes out sideways. You become depressed. Ill. Or, if you’re like me, you’ll find yourself expressing your needs in destructive ways.

And that’s what my husband discovered when he read my journals, how my true self had expressed herself sideways. I had written about the affair I’d had several years earlier. It’s still hard for me to disclose this, and I wish I’d never been that person. But what I know now is the importance of telling the truth and living your authentic life.

What happened to those journals? Well, after my husband found them, I destroyed them all – over seventy-five volumes at the time. As I said above, I’d been keeping journals since I was 11, and after I felt exposed, I didn’t write another journal entry for two years.

When I went back to journaling, I was paranoid! I kept everything saved on a thumb drive and carried it around with me everywhere. But that physical act of writing down my feelings, thoughts, reflections was such a powerful part of my journey, and continues to be important today. Commit to the physical act of writing it all down – preferably on paper. It does make a difference!

Journaling was an important part of my journey to my authentic self. Writing down thoughts, feelings, reflections is how we tell ourselves the truth. It’s not always easy, because if we are honest when we write, we’ll feel everything fully, with no pretensions. It’s also our opportunity to see things more objectively, and stop judging ourselves so harshly. It’s an inch-by-inch process, and you never know what will come out on the next page!

My journal is the portal into the story of my awakening. Internal wrestling. Self-awareness. Making myself vulnerable through these words has opened my eyes to the ways in which each of our stories are intertwined, coursing through one another. It’s not only the meaning, more the feeling that resonates between us. We are all of us writing for our lives. My writings were the stepping-stones along my journey from fear to self-love and self-forgiveness. Let your heart serve as a compass to lead you back to yourself, and an invitation to find and trust your own voice.

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